Phucking weird.  Only because the chances of it were 1 in 1000.  I guess I should have played the lottery that day.  Or gone to confession...

Now this is the girl that I blubbered over for a year +.  Some of you may have read about it... Therapy.

By the time I saw her, it was too late to turn around and walk the other way.  Too silly, too obvious.  But as it turns out, it would have been a better thing to do. 

As I walked towards her, I give an awkward smile (no teeth, just that weird pursed lip smile).  She doesn't react, as I get closer I offer, "hi, how are you?" "Good," she replies, and walks on.  That's it.  No follow up, "How are you," nothing. 

Now I obviously I care, or else I wouldn't be writing about it.  But the good news is, I don't care in the self-pity sense, but rather in the 'humanitarian' sense.  It was as if I were a complete stranger. Which granted 2 years later, I am, but I believe that most people would be friendly towards a complete stranger. 

Now when we broke up, sure I made the odd call, sent an email or two.  But never anything out of the norm.  No, 'mixed tapes' no letters, or prank phone calls etc.  It was a normal, sad break-up.  Sad for both.  The good news is, When I saw her, my initial reaction was not that of, 'how can I get her back,' but more of a, 'that's really weird to see her.' Which it was.

I'm just hoping that she was caught off guard, didn't know what to say or maybe didn't even recognize me? I refuse to believe someone would be so emotionally stunted to not even be cordial towards someone with whom they've shared a past. 

Mind you she did date me, so what does that say...